Life is indeed for a living..

Well..well..well.. Surprise i didnt miss that guy like i did before. He really just an old story now, why should i begged him to talk to me..geesh..lol so damn embarassing!! Ya know, time does heal, now im sure i can move forward, find a better way to enjoy life, most important of all find me a better love..haha! Hmpf...im graduating soon, cant wait to set my career and livin the dreams...hopefully! God hear me praying... So, i'll write again later okay. xoxo ;-)

what a girl can do...??

here we go again...

why didnt i listened to what my closest friends and family told me...biut not getting into that trouble again...

i should've ignored all the temptation to get back again...i should've ignored it!!!!!!!

now this shit happen again,,,and he just left like that...
again i feel so damn stupid!

why!!!???
thank GOD i didnt let my feeling interfere too deep like before...so i still can laugh, i didnt cry me a river...

oh well...

gotta find me a better lover!

Attitude of a donkey...(shit!)

I fuckin messed up my life once again...

begins with my stupid mad thought toward someone and more stupid of me i wrote it here ( i already delete all of those..)!!!!
i admit i've hurt his feeling so bad this time...i literally diss him, underestimate him and all...but i never meant all of that...
he said it makes me look like im just cocncern bout money....im not like that...i didn't even have the tought bout it bout he can or can't support me when i wrote it...

how am i apologize to him now...how!?
just please help me anyone....we just start getting on our track again after some issues...now i messed it all up!!!!

fuck!...i hate my stupid act this time...i wish i could bring him to the time when i wrote it...he'll probably trust me...

Chi im so sorry...i do care about you...i do love you so much...
it wasn't bout money or everything...

i know im the biggest asshole now..im the motherfucker..im the bitch...whatever it calls...i admit it....

just please...don't stop on me....

i don't wanna lose you again....